Finding My Passion by Valerie Guzman

People used to tell me all the time, “a picture can say more than words ever can.” When I was younger, I used to think that was not right, and for some reason it just didn’t make sense to me, but of course I couldn’t disagree since I was just a kid. All I could say was, “you’re right”.

For a while now, I’ve had many interests. I always thought I liked sports more than anything, just because my family would push me to participate in extracurricular activity, since I have always been “chubby”. I have been playing soccer for almost 5 years now, and I have always found soccer really fun, but it has never been something more than that. I’ve always known from the beginning that it is just something I would do for fun, but could never take it seriously later on in life.

Math is another thing I have always liked: Numbers, formulas, variables, graphs, data, and all that. I don’t know why, but I’ve always found it so amazing and perfect. It is perfect because 2+2 will never be anything else besides 4. But like soccer, I knew this wasn’t my passion.

My dad always tells me, “find your passion” and “your passion will lead you to your dreams”, but I never really paid attention to him. However, once the COVID-19 pandemic hit this year, everything shut down and everybody had to stay home, so you know I had a lot of free time. Well I decided to take that time to reflect on my life, think about mistakes I’ve made, work on all of my weaknesses, and also work on my strengths so they could be stronger than ever. During all of this reflection, I took a notebook out of my bookshelf and started to write down my feelings and other random stuff on there, kind of like a diary or a journal you could say. Well once I started writing, I didn’t think it was going to become something more than just a piece of paper full of my messy handwriting and a bunch of random words, but I was wrong. I have always liked to write, but I never truly realized it until now. Once I found this little appreciation that I had towards writing, I started to write more everyday that went by. There has been a lot of bad to come out of the pandemic, but for me I think that part of it was a blessing, because it helped me understand the meaning of life and find my inner soul that I have been looking for years now.

Well school started again, and everything is online. In my English class, we had to write a couple of essays at the beginning of the year. You might think I got a 100% given my new love for writing, but...no, that’s not the case. I got a C the first time and after trying a little harder the second time, I got a B. However, the grade didn’t matter to me that much though, because I just thought writing the essays were fun. I tried my best, and I poured my heart into it.

To me, writing is something more than just a way of communication. It’s a place where I can be myself without being judged by anyone. It’s a way I can express myself when I’m in a certain type of mood. The way I lose myself in all of these words when I’m writing feels like it’s the same way a singer could feel during a concert singing their favorite song, or the feeling of satisfaction and pleasure an artist could feel while painting, drawing, or even just something as simple as coloring. They’re doing what they love to do, so they try their best and pour their heart into it.

Writing is something I have been doing for a while now, and little by little I’m learning how to appreciate it even more. Every time I sit down to write I lose track of time, everything becomes a blur, and I’m just focused on my writing. Sometimes I can feel my brain thinking so hard to make all of these words fit perfectly with one another, and I just love that. After all of this time and reflection, I am now certain I can call this my passion.

If you made it this far in the blog, just know that sometimes life will throw at you the most amazing things when you are at your lowest point. That is what happened to me, and it helped me find my passion. Love life, never stop smiling, never stop making great memories, and NEVER stop dreaming.

“Go with the choice that scares you the most, because that’s the one that is going to help you grow and become the best version of yourself”

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